Falling in Love again...and again and again (with Jesus)

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I have seen people that are after that first feeling of love.

Those butterflies in the stomach, high hopes of an amazing future, the experience of a first kiss, first time you held hands

... I think yall catch my drift haha. A person can go on and on about how good a brand new relationship is. I think we all have good experiences with being with someone for the first time.

Sad to see though some of these couples seem to loose that spark. I would so a majority, if not all, at one point realize that the emotions and feelings of the "honey moon phase". Arguments and struggles arise.

Now so many thoughts can come to mind if your in this situation:

"How do I get back those feelings.....He/She changed.....Is this person the one?.......Why am I not feeling this no more? .........I wish things could go back to the way they were"

People (like myself) tend to panic in this situation and depending on how you cope with stressful situations, you could just turn a blind eye to it or muster up all you can to make this relationship into the one you always dreamed off

Now.....something I feel is not emphasized is this: The honey moon phase is BOUND to end. This I have had experience in. So where is the happiness in relationships?

I'll just cut right to it. I feel the struggles that every couple runs into gives opportunity for the relationship to get deeper. If this is the right person, they will grow somehow through this struggle and both individuals will become something NEW...something (dare I say) better then when they first got together. They become something new to fall in love with in a way.

I forget this so much in my relationship with Jesus. I know plenty of christians who have gone through dry phases. I am starting to think these are phases where the honey moon feelings have run out between that person and Jesus. Either it feels like hes not around no more...He seems to be far off. He seems to have changed. He no longer gives you those feelings you first felt when you met Him. He seems to be making you things you do not want to do...

So the solution? I have been hit with this new concept. Falling in love with Jesus again.

I forget that as I walk with Jesus, He will show different sides of Himself to me, sides that I have never seen before. These sides are not the sides I saw of Him when we first met. It might be scary to have Jesus show you more of His glory. I mean, mountains have been lit on fire when God showed himself (Mt. Sinai to be specific). Those images, that side of Jesus might scare you. It might make you wish that your relationship could just go back to the beginning. But I think theres a reason that Jesus does this...

We as humans tend to get bored. We can never get enough of anything. It seems that are hearts long for something eternal. We keep trying to get NEW things (new clothes, ipad [dont even get me started], cars, houses, parties, foods, degrees, boyfriends/girlfriends, hats, games, level up on W.O.W [ or this either], new songs, new guitars, etc.) We are either addicted to the feelings of new and/or just get bored with the things of old. We need an unlimited source of satisfaction and joy

Especially in regards to our need for love, we need a source of love every morning.

You see, Jesus knows this. He knows we are deeply spiritual creatures longing for eternal things; things that are out of this world's ability to give. He knew we needed Him to come to die and to be with us so that this huge desire (thirst) can be satisfied finally.

So as we tend to get comfortable and even bored in our faith, it becomes a time for Jesus to offer something new. AND since He is infinite, he never runs out of new sides of Him to show. NEVER.

Our God is capable of outstanding us in ways we have never seen before EVEN though we have known Him for years.

I realized that when ever i have fallen out of love of Jesus, He offers himself in a new way that he KNOWS will satisfy me. I might be to scared of seeing it because I might be unable to let go of the way things use to be with me and him. I dont want it to change.

But if at the core, you remember that this is someone who loves you, you are willing to take that risk. You are willing to go to a new church though it might be scary. You might be willing to go to Uganda and see Him work there. You might just start seeing Him in a brand new light... and that makes you fall in love all over again. It is almost like meeting a whole new person. And people, Jesus has an infinite amount of new light to shed on His children. We are capable of falling in love with Him over and over again. Those honeymoon feelings can always be there. BUT we must remember they come from the relationship that was strengthen through hard times.

My challenge to you, to those who seem to have fallen out of love with Jesus, first go to scripture and just remember that despite how you feel JESUS IS ALWAYS IN LOVE WITH YOU. NOw next, reflect and think of what side of Him is he trying to show you? What part of Him is he trying to show you? How does this call you to grow in your faith?

I have just started to fall in love with Jesus ALL OVER AGAIN and it has come from a long seasons of pain in school. I can tell you it will not be the last time I will fall in love with this guy. There will be another time where I will see a new side of Him and fall in love all over again. He is absolutely amazing.

True everlasting love is offered to everyone, its up to us to let go of our old conceptions/notions of love and open our hands to this new kind of amazing love. and it is up to us to do it again...and again...and again.