It has been 4 months since I left Uganda. almost 2 months since school started.
I had just woken up after not sleeping the night before because of an exam I had yesterday.
There was a eerie feeling of change around the room when I woke up (Similar to the feeling you get when you fall asleep in one place, and wake up in a totally different other). It is just amazing and even unsettling how much has happened to me in the past 6 months.
I continue to have urges throughout the day to go back to CVI and hold kids and have them fall asleep in my arms so that their mothers could go to school. There are times when I will be eating breakfast, hear someone complain about their eggs, and remember when the kids at the Kids Home would eat with unbelievable thankfulness their plain beans and posho. Here i see people throw away trays of food. It is crazy how Uganda still pops up in the middle of random times of my life. It still shapes me.
My life as of right now has been a blessing, yet there is something unsettling about what has happened. I realize that InterVarsity has even changed for me. I been describing the feeling as having out grown it. I am no longer surrounded by people who really understand what I have gone through. Given though, I still love them. Particularly the freshmen and the new comers. But somehow I still feel out of place. There is this feeling that God is calling me to focus on something else right now...I am just unsure what it really is. I have a sense it is my schooling and there has been so much life that has come out of that.
Changes come so fast sometimes, it can be overwhelming...but what ever changes come, my God stays the same.
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